Day 5: Waning Gibbous in Libra

Sacred Rose

Dear Blossoming Soul,

This past year, I’ve been learning how to receive. I didn’t realize how difficult that lesson would be.

Giving is easy.

Receiving? That’s surprisingly hard.

So today, I’m sitting with the question of reciprocity. What does it actually look like? What does it feel like in my body, not just in theory?

As a teacher, a mom — and if I’m being honest, in almost every area of my life — it has always been easier for me to do. To step in. To handle it. To make sure things move forward.

I’ve rarely left much space for someone else to step into.

There’s fear in leaving the middle open. Empty. Unoccupied. Unclaimed.

If I don’t step in, what if no one does?
What if the thing doesn’t get done?
What if the space just… stays empty?

So I show up. And I do.

During COVID, when school moved online, I was suddenly limited in how much I could show up and manage. And something unexpected happened. I felt myself unclenching. A thread began to loosen.

When I returned to work and felt that familiar urge to do creeping back in, I slowed down. I paused. I started asking myself whether this was actually a space I needed to step into or one I could leave open.

Life forced me to learn this at first.
Now, I’m choosing it more consciously.

So today, as I reflect on reciprocity, I’m noticing where I can leave the middle ground open. Where I can resist the urge to fill it.

Instead of showing up to do, can I allow myself to just be?

This is the tending today.

Daily Oracle Card

THE GREAT MOTHER speaks to my nervous system.

She reminds me that life holds polarities.
The good and the bad.
The joy and the ache.
The ease and the uncertainty.

To both give and receive.

The Great Mother is asking me not to avoid any of this, but to lay it all down and fall into her arms.
To remember that I don’t have to control the middle in order to be held.

Receiving starts in the space I don’t fill.

Always,
Your Trusted Friend 🌹