Sacred Rose
Dear Blossoming Soul,
Intuitive pings are part of my inner knowing. And still, I notice how often I try to explain them. To justify them. To make them make sense before I allow myself to trust them.
I was in a relationship for several years where two things lived quietly inside me from the beginning. I knew he was dating other women. I knew he was using substances he wasn’t honest about. The knowing arrived without evidence, without language. Just a knowing in my body.
Because I couldn’t explain it, I ignored it.
The pings grew louder over time, until one day I found myself reaching into a shoe sitting on a rack. I don’t know why. It was just a shoe, minding its own business. But my hand went inside, up toward the toe, and I pulled out a small plastic bag filled with white powder.
Even then, I didn’t leave.
Instead of honoring the knowing, I searched for confirmation. I wanted proof before I made the decision I already knew I needed to make. I told myself I needed a reason. An explanation. Something that would make it make sense.
There is guilt here when I look back. Not just for staying, but for how long I asked my body to hold what my mind refused to accept. The migraines. The stomach pain. The exhaustion. My body tried desperately to get my attention.
Still, I asked why.
The relationship didn’t end until much later, when even more evidence arrived through a child. Only then did I finally act on what I had known all along.
I notice this pattern still shows up in smaller ways.
Like this summer, when I was caught off guard by a deep well of emotion, crying alone in my tent. I lay there trying to understand it.
Where is this coming from?
What does it mean?
Those words come easily to me.
What does it mean?
But today, I’m realizing something both gentler and harder all at once.
Not everything needs meaning before it deserves trust.
Not every truth arrives with an explanation.
Some things are asking to be honored, not understood.
Sometimes the work isn’t to make it make sense.
It’s just to listen.
This is the tending.
Daily Oracle Card
This card felt like an a-ha moment.
One of those quiet recognitions where you think, of course this is the card I would draw today.
The message is simple and powerful: the blueprint is already within you.
I am reminded of the acorn, the beginning of the mighty oak.
The acorn does not question its destiny or wonder what it is meant to become. It does not ask whether it is worthy of becoming an oak.
It simply grows.
This is my reminder to trust my own blueprint and to take the next step, even if I cannot yet see the whole path.
Always,
Your Trusted Friend 🌹
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