Day 20: Waxing Crescent in Aries

Sacred Rose

Dear Blossoming Soul,

It has always been relatively easy for me to meet new people and step into new spaces.

Not always comfortable, because new can be scary, but once I’m there I genuinely love it. I love conversation. I love connection. I’ve always considered myself an extrovert.

But lately, as I’ve been dating again, I’ve started noticing something.

I was sitting on a date I was actually enjoying… when it struck me that I had been the one leading the conversation. Setting the tone. Creating comfort. Keeping the energy moving.

And I wondered:
What happens if I’m quiet?
What happens if I stop trying?
What happens if I let the other person move toward me instead?

So I stopped.

Silence followed.

And suddenly I became painfully aware of myself. Of my body. Of the space I wasn’t filling. Of the impulse to rush in and rescue the moment. To smooth it. To make it easier. To keep the connection alive through my effort.

I wanted to.
But I resisted.

Because I’m learning that sometimes my “confidence” has been a kind of armor.

A way of staying in control.
A way of making sure I’m never left waiting.
A way of proving I’m worth staying with.

Today, my challenge is:

To let the space exist.
To let silence speak.
To let someone meet me without my constant choreography.

This is the tending today.

Daily Oracle Card

THE GRANDMOTHERS is my daily oracle.

This card calls me to remember my roots, to look all the way back to my ancestors in order to move forward with intention.

The Grandmothers are asking me to play a role in this time of healing. To tend to and integrate what I have inherited through my ancestral line.

To reconnect all the way back to the Original Mother, and to recognize myself as an ancestor in the making for those who will come after me.

I heal for those yet to come.

Always,
Your Trusted Friend 🌹

This reflection is part of the Sacred Rose: A 28-Day Journey of Self-Love. Click here to view the full journey roadmap.