Day 25: Waxing Gibbous in Gemini

Sacred Rose

Dear Blossoming Soul,

I’m really good at keeping clutter.

Not out in the open.
It gets tucked into drawers and closets.
Hidden in corners.
Out of sight.

My shared spaces need to look clean. Orderly. Put together.
So the mess goes underground.

I sweep things off the counter into a drawer.
I shove them into a closet.
I tell myself I’ll deal with it later.

And then later becomes never.

I know what it feels like to have a space so disorganized that I start avoiding it. I push it out of my mind. I pretend it isn’t there. I live around it.

Not long ago, I didn’t have that option.

A flooded apartment forced me to empty everything.
Every closet. Every corner. Every hidden pile.

So I purged.
I cleaned.
I organized.

Even the spaces I’d been avoiding.

What surprised me most wasn’t how much I got rid of.

It was how light I felt when I came back.

Without the clutter weighing me down.
Without the looming to-do list living in my nervous system.
Without the quiet shame of “I’ll deal with that later.”

Right now, there is no depression pile.
No overflowing closet.

There is just space.

And I’m realizing how quickly I try to fill space.
Physical space.
Emotional space.
Relational space.

How often I reach for things I don’t need.
Clothes I buy because I’m uncomfortable in my body.
Distractions I use to avoid feeling.
Stories I keep because letting go feels unfamiliar.

But when I rush to fill space, there’s no room for what I actually want.

Only clutter.

Today, I’m choosing space.

Space for breath.
Space for clarity.
Space for what’s trying to arrive.

This is the tending today.

Daily Oracle Card

TRUST THE SEASON

Her words today are: embracing change, cycles of life, transition, and growth.

She reminds me that life is not lived only in bloom, even though everything around us suggests it should be. That we should always be thriving. Always expanding. Always “doing well.”

But life doesn’t move in straight lines.

It moves in seasons.

There are times for growing.
Times for resting.
Times for shedding.
Times for waiting.

We are not meant to stay in the same state forever.
Nothing is meant to remain unchanged.

And the more I try to control things to keep them the same, the more disconnected I become from myself. From the rhythm of my own becoming. From the quiet wisdom of timing.

Change is frightening because it asks for surrender.
To the unknown.
To the in-between.

To not being who I was…
and not yet knowing who I’m becoming.

But resisting change doesn’t protect me.

It delays me.

It keeps me from the life that is trying to grow through me.

Today, I choose to trust the season I’m in.

Always,
Your Trusted Friend 🌹

This reflection is part of the Sacred Rose: A 28-Day Journey of Self-Love. Click here to view the full journey roadmap.